Jan2018-Nov2025. a dedicated post to the puppy who gave me a reason to get up since the day I got her in 2018 🤍 I named her Azul because she had the most gorgeous blue eyes 🦋💎🩵 she was the silliest and sweetest dog i’ve ever had, with a temperament that would make you forget how STRONG she is (til someone would try cutting her nails)
thank you so much to everyone who reached out and thank you so much to those who showed up. This is the first family death I’ve been present for first hand. Death and sickness is not unfamiliar to me but something this one has been a stark reminder and reality check while her soft head fell asleep on my lap:
1) people do care and are here for me, and loved Azul and I very much. my misfortune and the sadness that comes with it is not a burden to people who care.
2) all living organisms are fragile beings, be grateful for every moment you have with your loved ones cause one day to the next, it can all really be gone. be present. do not mourn the future. I did a lot of that and the suffering came anyways.
3) Dogs are the closest thing to an angel I’ll ever come across and for that I’m so happy to have had the relationship I did with my Azul. s/o the ancestors that helped domesticate them so we’d have pets today.
Again, thank you so much to everyone who reached out, genuinely, it makes me aware that people care during one of the hardest times of my life.
I lost my Sif, my Pochita but she IS my heart and on my arm forever 🫂 grief is weird and I worry this will change me, but hopefully it will be for the better. keep sending me CSM and adventure time tiktok’s and all the pretty blue things mama. Mommy loves you!!!
